Selasa, 22 Mei 2018

ok so

ok so.............

   i didn't fail anything! my average mark is the second lowest in the class, but WHO THE HECK CARE? I DIDN'T FAIL ANYTHING!

   which means that the holiday has 'kinda' started for me. i mean, i still have a few days left but they aren't too bad. i've spent my time in front of my laptop all the time watching show and movies and reading and writing stories. it all feels good!
 
   but i get tired very easily somehow??? like i just feel sleepy 24/7 and it doesn't matter how much caffeine i drink they won't affect me. i still feel tired and i hate it because too much sleep decrease my time to hang out with my laptop. pathetic, i know, but fun as hell.

   ok so there's that

   bye

Sabtu, 19 Mei 2018

damn damn damn

so,

   tomorrow it's monday. well it still feels like saturday but i'm writing this at 1am so it's actually sunday today. anyway. monday. means going back to school after a satisfying holiday for one week. but i don't want to go back. really not. i wish i could just have the school holiday straight away.

   the main reason why i really really don't want to go back is because soon we will have our score announced. and i don't want to know. i don't want the whole class to know. because i know i'm going to fail 2 subjects, math and p.e. both of that subjects could burn in hell for all i care.

   i strangely got in the 'olympic' class where all the smart students are. the thing is, i'm not smart. i'm definitely the most dumb in the class. and in this exam, we're not supposed to fail any yet i fail 2 subjects. i bet i'm the only one. the others won't fail any, and i don't want to hold the burden of being the only one in the class that fail something.

   i wish i could just dissapeaaaaaaaaaaaar.

Minggu, 13 Mei 2018

heu

ok.

   here we go again. i've deleted all of my blog posts and start over. i haven't written anything for months and everything i've written are pure trash so why not start over.

   *cough* so a lot of things are going to happen v soon and i hope i can actually keep up with writing a blog weekly. i gave up writing monthly wrap-up like i used and planned to, but i still hope i can keep up with this blog as a online diary type of thing.

   i can't keep promises tho, not even to myself

i've moved several times and never cry in each ones but holy hell i cried so much in this one

i haven't write anything in a long hecking time but let's just get to the point SOOOOOOOOO i'm planned to write this on...